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Saturday, May 22, 2010 Been feeling rather dreadful thinking that school is starting in round about 2 months.. but then again there's already school-related rubbish happening in june/july and the thought of it is vexing. 5 months passed all too quickly, and I've only thoroughly enjoyed myself the past 2 months.From working for nearly a month with probably the best job I can find for my qualifications, the working life seems rather enticing actually. (In stark contrast to feb-mar at pwc) And its not that I'm feeling apprehensive about my choice of course; not at all. In fact, curriculum-wise, it's all quite appealing still. It's the need to re-integrate into the hustle of school life, the need to be punctual, the increased difficulty in getting out of trouble by simply using the art of persuasion, the obligation to greet and engage in a conversation with my other 120-odd classmates when I just feel like wandering around in my own world, the lost of internet-surfing and sleep time, the need to put up with incredulous looks/comments if I do decide not to join any extra-curricular activities... the list goes on. Basically just a lost of some elements of freedom and a life with nearly no pressure. Maybe I should live on a farm.
Saturday, May 15, 2010 I figured I should comment on the highly freakish-ly accurate personality test.Openness This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer novelty versus convention. Approximately 58% of respondents have a lower openness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is aware of their feelings but doesn't get carried away with their imagination either. You might say that you embrace change when it is necessary while still resisting it when you think it is not, and that beauty is important to you, but it's not everything. Reflective question: When do you think that tradition is important, and when is it time for change? True, that highlighted sentence. Seemingly ignorant about it sometimes too, me. Conscientiousness This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer an organised, or a flexible, approach in life. Approximately 52% of respondents have a lower conscientiousness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is random and fun to be around but that you can plan and persist when life requires it. From your responses it appears that depending on the situation, you can make quick decisions or deliberate for longer if necessary. Reflective question: How do you go about organising your workload? Yup, to me its all choice. Can't pressure me too much, really. Extraversion This trait refers to the extent to which you enjoy company, and seek excitement and stimulation. Approximately 62% of respondents have a lower extraversion raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is energetic and active. Your answers describe you as someone who enjoys and actively seeks out social occasions, and that you especially enjoy talking with a big group of people. Reflective question: Do you prefer to be busy all the time? Why? Gosh I'd love to be busy all the time honestly. I could die of boredom. Think I should've gotten a higher score for this one though. The part about seeking excitement. Anyway this whole paragraph hit the nail on the head. Agreeableness This trait refers to the way you express your opinions and manage relationships. Approximately 0.4% of respondents have a lower agreeableness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is willing to make difficult decisions when necessary, and will point out when something is wrong no matter what other people might feel. Your responses suggest that you would say that you can be tough and uncompromising. Reflective question: When others are experiencing problems, what do you do? Beware of me yes, because this is true as well. Whether or not I object to someone/ something/ some idea/ some notion in my head/ out loud, I object most of the time. And I think I do have a knack for pointing out loopholes. Neuroticism (Emotional stability) This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 95% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who tends to be more self-conscious than many. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who can find it hard to not get caught up by anxious or stressful situations. You might say that you are in touch with your own feelings. Reflective question: When do you not feel in control of your emotions? I can't agree more to this. If there was a way to describe myself, I guess this'd be it. To answer the question: Never. And i mean never, not even when drunk. (Maybe not dead drunk though)
Wednesday, May 12, 2010 Been getting cheap thrills finding out little things and dreaming about near-impossible happenings.Feels like the life again, like some 4 years ago. The sad part comes with accepting that near-impossible is self-explanatory you dumbass
Thursday, May 06, 2010 I figured this has become a platform to rant and lament.My lack of postings doesnt imply that i've had 2 weeks of nice nothingness. There are some complaints that posting wont solve, and there are some that require too many expletives to post. This post kinda fits the latter so its gonna be really tiresome to edit those words out from my thoughts. I think i learnt to be a decisive person. Its a life skill. Earns you respect if you're smart and labels you goddamnshitassmoron if you're not. Think i've had a good share of both. Decisiveness - deciding whether you want to freaking change lane when you're on the road. The indecisive: turn a little and swerve back. Me: catch up with that airhead and shoot a stare. The goddamnshitassmoron (taxi drivers): Swerve (and change lane) without signalling. Quick and decisive, but still absolutely brainless and detestable. Me: flash and horn and swear. But the worst: (obviously) indecisive people who pretend to be decisive by picking a choice and going all out only to pull out at the end and the only reaction that i can give to someone like that if the outcome concerns me is taking out a butcher knife and hacking IT down. I forgot to add, it gets gorier if that person is book smart. Imagine: (book) smart, but no time to think. People who cant think.. shouldnt be called people. I guess I should stop before I put another knife in my bag for 'self-protection'. Moving on Other than screwed up thoughts and twisted dreams my past 2-3 weeks have been surprisingly smooth. And i'm thankful for that. Other than taking history (and dropping chem) i think working at aspire hub was a rather good decision (for now). I suppose those are the 2 best decisions i've made in my life that i can think of now. (That says something about my pathetic life) The worst decisions: joining track in jc yeah everyone knows that was a bad decision when they ask why the hell you continue with this shit and i say dammit i have no idea. Another bad one was taking trip science in sec 3 i guess. And most recently i think it was working at pwc goodness gracious me. Quoting Prof Woon, you never know how tired you are until you stop what you're doing. Yeah post-pwc was an awesome time. Dont think i would trade free time with pwc on my resume. It wasnt a good idea to mount kerb (as compared to reversing) at an illegal u-turn last week too. And maybe to use my phone while cycling with a flat tyre. But I dont think (and hopefully not) I'll ever make a decision that will have grave consquences on my future. I think too much to ever be able to do so. When I mean think, it's thinking about the same thing (consciously and unconsciously) for months and years. Not in days dammit. And not just hearing 1 goddamn point of view. It sometimes appalls me to think that people can't play the devil's advocate for their own good. Thats for people who have brains but dont know how to use them. And for people who process too much for the size of their heads and the span of their lives... no use saying: stop thinking. act on impulse. Tried that a million times. Just... good luck.
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