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Saturday, October 17, 2009 I see an endAll dark and bleak The end of the A levels More people should understand how fortunate they are to be schooling Cause it really is a quagmire out there When I was round about 6 years old I was asked what I was afraid of I said, the future (for real) Its looming
Saturday, October 03, 2009 21 doesnt make much of a difference to a singaporean. a typical 21 year old continues living with his parents, ain't married yet, and probably still schooling. yet in 3 years i won't be that typical 21 year old.imagine if a polish jew in 1945 knew that he would get to the newly independent state of Israel in 1948. no doubt he would spent his days yearning for time to quicken, but 3 years under the dear fuhrer is eternity; he would probably be dead and gone in 3 years. in 3 years this jew could only hope and pray, and appease all anti-semites. i am a jew. in 3 years i will be emancipated. that's provided i survive. provided i manage to appease the dictator. the dictator who looks at me and has a vermin reflected in his eyes. but no, despite what he sees, i must see a fuhrer. the most respectable, honorary fuhrer. he is above my ceiling. he is, every single day. and will be for the next 3 years. the most bigoted of bigots. and till 12th of june 2012 i can only wish to say this to him: fuck you, to your very grave i guess only those who know my background know what the hell i'm talking about. even so, i've yet to find one who lives/had lived under a similar despotic regime. yet i want people to know my plight; because everything vile about the person i became was shaped by one wretched being. but this immense hatred made me more like the person i despised; that made me despise even more. its one deadly trap i need to get out of, before i finally turn to destroying myself instead.
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