Monday, January 31, 2005
i'm so tired i could sleep NOW. happy birthday hui2!oh yay wore spikes and did pit jumping for the first time of 2005 =) standing board standing trip sprints. and i didnt stretch after cool down! arrrgghhh. i'll die tmr morning
be tolerant is good =) but not too much. maybe i am =)
Saturday, January 29, 2005
YAY IT'S AN UNSCREWED TAGBOARD NOW! i'm so delighted. =)and HAPPY BIRTHDAY my father and to lena too!
obs people are back!
the tagboard is super screwed up
hse prac four today
trained the secones for long jump. and i finally jumped in a PIT after dunno how many months.
went to taka to get some food =)
Friday, January 28, 2005
shit i can only see the tagboard on school com not at home. freak. sth's wrong with my com
Thursday, January 27, 2005
gosh my bro's joining stamp soc. ????!!!! to earn more cca pts, i understandi survived one WHOLE DAY of SIX STUDY BLOCKS and NOTHING ELSE excess recess and lunch. great huh
and i got booked for socks again. sucks. one more to dc.
tagboard is DOWN. but i'm not convinced it's the com that's the prob
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
i am painfully EXHAUSTED. what's more, all the homework are given TODAY. great, stupid mrs mak.training. at rj again. far east for lunch before that. phew twas terribly tiring. sprints and sprints and sprints. and i was giddy. the sec ones are weird. (that's already a
Monday, January 24, 2005
ouch i'm so frrreeakking tired. i'm not gonna do any work today =)ohwell there was training in the afternoon, shiqian the only secthree the rest at obs. although i managed to get a glimpse at linxi in the morning HAHAHHA. clown! at there was this sprint & walk sprint & walk thing and at the third round i felt like blacking out. and then i thought of crystal and how malu it would be. arrghhh i think i've got asthma. shiitt!
i wouldve ponned training if blah and blah werent there. =) hahaha i went mad today too. dian drives me to insanity =) with her
yay i've got no homework today
Sunday, January 23, 2005
sometimes it's like there're 2 people in me. i talk and argue with myself well =) hahaha.conversations like: mind 1: "wow the sky is blue today." mind 2: "shit why are you crapping so much huh. of course the sky is blue",
and "do you think i should pon training?" answer:"maybe, but i dont think so. must find a perfect excuse"
and "argh i'm freaking bored." answer:"jump into the sea and play"
ima clown as well as a goth =)
Saturday, January 22, 2005
this is weird. arathi's msn nick says: [sometimes, it is so much better to be all all alone], and singyean's one says: [but sometimes, you wont be left out if only you'd try to fit in]. doesnt it link? but i absolutely dont think they know each other. coincidence, or whatwhat a useless evening i spent, finally out
emmm told me to publicly credit her for a huge collection of songs. so i just did
Friday, January 21, 2005
-Unique- You are different. You're the type of person that
is easily spotted in a crowd. You have a
radiant personality. You probably go through a
lot of mood swings from happy to lonely, angry
to sad, loving to spiteful, and so on. Be aware
that your sudden change in personality may
offend some people. People like to be around
you because you are genuine and relaxed. You
seem at peace with yourself and you give off
that "what you see is what you get"
vibe. That's a good thing because your general
audience will feel relaxed and at ease knowing
that they too can be themselves with out having
to worry. Try not to judge others on their
appearance. It's not nice. Over all you're a
spirited person who enjoys having a good time!
Good for you! :o)
You're Beautiful...but why? ( PICS)
Thursday, January 20, 2005
ooh it's another season of american idol. yes.HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIQIANNN!!!
it was a very normal study school day. we stayed in our classroom for the WHOLE DAY until the last block of com studs. can you believe having STUDY SUBJECTS for the whole day??? and it's a LONG DAY.
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
oh yay i liked today's training. at rj! yay i wanna train at rj everytime. what a nice and new and CLEAN place. feels like heaven cause the walls are cleanly white! and so are the floors. and a nice lift too. my bro's classroom at 4TH STOREY and SO IS MINE but he's got a LIFT! not fair. they've transparent windows in the so-very-pretty classroom and so they decorate it with glass paint. like multicoloured graffiti on the windows. arrrghh i cant wait till i'm j1 =) another 3 more years of pain suffering and misery. sigh! the track is nice and soft too. yay. baaahh i want a new rgs but TOO BAD.we did something like normal training, finally. bounding in 5 months. then some condition-relay thing. the j1s were there too. etc.. and my bro took me round the school with sab and lulu, behaving like an entertainer. mhmm.
anyway before that we had lunch and the s3s bought shiqians present. i wanna see it! and i had to taggg along the s4s while they talked about whatever physics chem maths stuff. and from bishan mrt to walk to rjc is sucha hell lot. more than rgs to far east, maybe.
ouch my legs are horribly aching. and considering that i was in perfect condition before that
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Every thing I touch goes black
Dark as pitch, color never to come back
Day dies and is replaced by night
Light is drained and pulled out of sight
As far as I can see there is no light to follow
No moon to let off a silvery glow
No sun to announce the beginning of tomorrow
Life vanishes and death is what replaces
Vibrancy and joy are stolen
And all that's left are empty spaces
His voice gives fear
His eyes blood red
He knows not love
But lives in hate instead
What is he to others? He is their demise
He is what kills on a moonless night
The tears that they cry
Who else can put themselves in my place?
Who else can stare into deaths cold hard face?
Whether or not you want to
Let your mind unbend
For you know as well as I do
That your life will inevitably end.
and i've learnt more again.
how gothic my life has gone. and i was like totally invisible after school today. it's got absolutely nothing to do with height. i get fucking angry and sad at the same time
try to jump up but you find yourself sinking lower
Monday, January 17, 2005
mygosh i actually predicted the tiger cup finals score RIGHT ON THE SPOT! JACKPOT! WHOOOOHOOOO i shouldve bet. duuuh! lots of cassshhh. hahhahaha.anyway i learnt more about people today =) its the experience that counts..
that bebo.com thing is irritating.
Sunday, January 16, 2005
what hell shit. i accidentally deleted my WHOLE blog template so i had to redo the whole damn thing. wasted so much time and used a hell lot of anxiety. but i'm so glad that its still so similar to the original one. PHEW. my nice hard work. although i'm quite sure i didnt manage to link everybody backit's a big fat lousy stinky sunday today
singapore vs indonesia
1st leg: s'pore 3: indonesia 1
2nd leg: (prediction) s'pore 2: indonesia 1
total score: s'pore 5: indonesia 2
winner of tiger cup 2005: singapore!
i've really got nothing better to do
my love for you - insatiable
infleunced by
-- ooh jesse mccartney and will young - hottttt
Saturday, January 15, 2005
my GOODNESS. today was sabby's yanhan's and melissa's birthday altogether. i'll seriously go mad. and when i came in the morning i thought twas just a normal day. i didnt remember ANY of their birthdays! ok fine i'm horrible and lousy. =X but soon i remembered sabby's then yanhan's then melissa's according to order. sabby: em and someone else was talking.. yanhan: hui2 reminded me. LOL melissa: i just realised when i went to yanhan's blog. omg sorry everybody =)anyway there was house prac. sbjs again. then we went to fareast and got sabby's white miniskirt. hahahhahaahah she later told me that she liked it. LOL. good choice! =) then to ps for her body mist thing. bought groceries, went to linxi's house to make sandwiches and cocktails.. hahahhahahah hilarious time. and SOME people kept quarreling. and about the 'woman who made it all possible' eating up the eggs. hahahhaha
so we got to ecp for the jumper's picnic. everyone were waiting for us?!! ate, played at the beach, dug holes, made walls.. lame =) but fun. and we managed to trick sabby and dunked her in the sea TWICE =D hahahhaha. the second one was nice. janessa was like: so we all know what to do went the next big wave comes right? -we have to make stronger walls to block the water- (and i was seriously laughing).. and we kept screaming about the wave trying to get the perfect time to dunk her and we succeeded! so gullible. sabby. didnt even suspect anything from such behaviour! =p
then we (me kim linxi sherie em) went lousy bowling. everything was just so screwed. but anyway at macs, we settled the complicated headaching money probs. and had many zillions of great big laughs. HAHAHHAHAHHA. bet that worked our abs.. =D hahahah. then SOMEONE wanted to go to town, SOMEONE wanted to pool but we couldnt get a table, SOMEONE hid like crazy from some gerald person, SOMEONE suggested to got to ps and stone, SOMEONE decided later that all was a stupid idea and should've stayed at macs and laugh our heads off to have fun.. great. that wonderful SOMEONE called kim tho. [applause]
and i went home at ps. LOL
oh and once and AGAIN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SABBY YANHAN AND MELISSA! what's so good about 15 jan? so many birthdays. hmmm
Friday, January 14, 2005
school training home. my days can be repeated. though today started quite shocking and ended sweet =)
Thursday, January 13, 2005
oOOooFFF. my legs are so wobbly, bending them will make me fallarh. i went running today =)
with my brother =)
set off up the long and winding uphill south buona vista road and the side of kent ridge. then turned into prince george's park nus hostel. into nus business fac, then through the campus out to pasir panjang road and down the road past haw par villa past sabby's house and back. ouch. was 5+ k i should think but it felt so much longer =)
we stopped at the park to stretch and drills and did bursts. yay i like my bursts. i'll join 100m =) (egoness =)) and 4x100m =)
and there's still pe and training tomorrow. ohmy. how will i die? but i feel fit! =)
ohno and i've got piles of homework on my table
a normal day. a normal day doesnt mean good. my brains were fried. we had the whole day of study blocks. jason ng sucks sucks sucks. i hate even week thurs
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
school was good today. of course. because yesterday was bad. =D (what great superstition, but really.) training was good too. played netball without rules for warmup. yaaay. then drills sprints and situps. quite a comfortable training. YAY sectwo jumpers '05!: me dian wenwei samantha. i dont like wenwei she's so freaking tall. one head above me please. ERGH. oh wow she's the tallest jumper since last year, last last year...... oh i love vigs. husena is so hilarious. a jokerholic. hahahahaha. i went mad during training today
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
yesterday was a good day, so today turned out quite horribly. but twas better after school i must say. went to sabby's house with her friend. rachel? hahahha. we ate and did homework. then i got walked home with the doggie. =) right i'm starting to hate school too much
Monday, January 10, 2005
yay. twas quite a smooth day i must say =) normal school day and then training but now i've lost track of my homework.
Saturday, January 08, 2005
one in a million, one of a kindhse prac two, was quite a mess i think. a mass of mess. ouch. did sbjs. my gosh 104 really has a big fat ap. anyway went to bb popular got some of my stuff and went home. how good. yay i've finished the design of the class tee. its quite nice i think =) and i'm done with my hist file, still left lit eng chi maths file, maths ws, science ws, study chinese. and then i will be fully satisfied. but that's impossible to finish by today
what's up with the yellow and blue lance armstrong wristband? nuts
Friday, January 07, 2005
school, training, conditions, some station games, went home. yet it was some hell of a day in THAT way. there is house prac number two tomorrow.my thoughts are running wild, uncontrollable
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my view: materialism is a highly contagious terminal disease. it kills me. is it killing you?
Thursday, January 06, 2005
school. mszhang's lesson today she spent the whole block on intro for us. i guess that's quite normal isnt it. later. went out with sabby, catched meet the fockers, met em kim linxi for a while, watched the movie, went home. simplei dont like tues and thurs
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
house prac one. selections.. kicking out people. etc. went out to get icemilktea. got home with sabby. then we went walking with her dog. till 740, so there.mmhmm yes i know what you mean. like i care, because that's what i think about you too
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
second day. got to meet some other teachers. tina chung really loves talking. she can talk for 15 mins straight. wow. but surprising i dont get bored off by her. WOW!and we changed places! YAY. i love my seat. i love my group too. group 4. at least all the neutral type of people. i've heard more about ________ and i just can't shut my ears. ergh. i think i'll get used to it. aesthetics tomorrow. slack day yay.
and i got a peek around rj. so nice and big! j1s were having orientation. hahaha. i bet it's so much more fun than sec school one. huh
Monday, January 03, 2005
first day of school, and things were just SO great [scm]i looked at the timetable and wanted to cry.
tomorrow's gonna be a hell day and i dunno what to do.
sometimes i wish i could pon school. how sad. and all i heard today about ________ was just sickening and i can't bear it,
but what can i do?
keep quiet and be a fool
my class just sucks so much. just SUCKS. i dont care if any one of them reads this shit.
i'm so damn exasperated. especially from what i heard, and what i predict is gonna happen so very soon, in weeks to come. fuck i wanna move out of the class.
Sunday, January 02, 2005
OH, YES! i finished packing my cupboard, and i've ONE LAST PAGE of scrapbook left. yaaaay! ahhh. -sense of achievementohmygosh i have another twelve hours to finish the damn scrapbook of another seven pages and i've got NOTHING TO WRITE. damn it
Saturday, January 01, 2005
i should have new year resolutions too.1. peers, friends (improve on rapport)
2. track nats (c div!!! do well. finals AT THE LEAST, top 3 perhaps, + wala)
3. studies (jump out off the precarious 2.8 border, improve loads on chinese and maths)
yay.
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i've got mountains to climb and potholes to fall into, counting to an infinity
ah just back from lunch at ms zhang's. there were ethel lulu xiaohui janessa singyean sherie and me =). we just talked and talked about everything.. ordered pizza.. talked somemore, etc. and then we went back. yup. but twas quite long. 1-430pm. happy new year everyone!
closing time, every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
hi there, 2005! =)
wow. one whole year just passed. (what a cliche) and it DID feel like one year.. so many different happenings.. having to adapt to them.. etc. trainings.. loads of them.. seniors.. loads of them. treating each day as if it was still the first day of school.. and then whoosh! half a year has past. and i'll never forget the pre-eoy days.. what i call 'the depression'. my mind was just.. "live each day because you are born to, die in the end having done nothing but live". quite sad actually. those days were absolutely terrible. saving every cent i had each day.. for what? no reasons. buy stuff i guess. come to think of it, it was so materialistic, depriving myself of food and nutrients just to buy stuff. ridiculous.. and most of all, floating around cliques in the class aimlessly.. waiting for someone to come by and say hi.. otherwise being a mute to me wouldn't make any difference. well it did get a little better after the eoys, but wasn't as normal as i expected. i guess trainings were so sloppy because of the new com? and twas just as if trainings didn't matter one bit. that's when i felt that ponning training might be good afterall.
sigh. another heavy school year starting, in.. 3 days. but i really hope i wouldn't be so hectic and well, less floating around aimlessly and all that.. and i sure am looking forward to mszhang teaching me chinese =) YAY! i hope the maths teacher's nice too.. otherwise i'll die. actually ms ou was nice but i took it for granted. sigh. anyway, it's gonna be nationals year for me. c div. SIGH. train train train hard. and PLEASSEEE i'd better not get a 3-streak over-stepping or i just might as well die. the long jump nats this year was a freaking pity. i hate that day ERGH. seriously couldve gotten 4th or 5th or sth if i'd done my pb. nevermind. it'll be better next year, i assure myself. i actually miss this year yet look forward to next year.. miss all the exciting happenings.. new grounds.. stuff. etc. ohwell. juniors next year! =D i swear IT all again.. oh and if 'the depression' is gonna repeat itself i'll commit suicide. yes. but i'm quite sure i wont let it.
goodbye 2004, i'll miss you! (hah)
still, CHEERS for the new year, everyone!
escapist
but a morose optimist.
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